Dialogue & Art

   
Discovering yourself through art.......

   Recently while painting some "abstract explorations" I heard an enormous amount of internal dialogue going on that I hadn't heard before.........some of this will sound a bit.....crazy, and I don't take it to seriously myself.

    This isn't some poltergeist sort of thing occurring and my mind wasn't taken over by aliens nor was I using mind altering substances.....though, that might be of help in my explorations into the abstract realms of painting. When in the creative sphere whether writing, doing visual art or designing homes I always have a sort of positive inner guide, the quite voice that helps me to make decisions, what colors and content is best, etc., but the very small voice in the back of this voice is what I heard while doing the abstracts. It is not the voice of the muse, nor the reflections of academia or anything that I can recall being fed into my brain, though of course somewhere along the path of life I may have encountered it and completely forgotten the makings of it.

    Most of the time  I do figurative or semi-figurative work, take a lot of time to do them, exercise a
great amount of detail and am unable to leave white space. The abstract explorations are quite unlike the previously mentioned, taking little time, very loose, little detail and a lot of white space. I'm forcing myself to go outside my comfort zone, to broaden my artistic horizons mostly because I've been experiencing an "artist block" for some time now and desperately wanted a breakthrough of some sort.

   For some reason, while doing these abstract explorations the little voice in back of the little voice is telling me, "what I'm doing is wrong, inconsequential, I should take more time to complete them, there is no detail and this makes the work worthless, why am I leaving so much white space and why am I not doing more conceptual work that would mean something, and on it goes". Good grief!!!! I'm curious to know if other artist have experienced these sorts of inner commentary.

   What's funny about all of this to me is the contrast of having an enormous amount of fun and freedom while hearing a very derogatory and critical inner voice....the voice behind the inner voice. My general day to day inner dialogue is quite positive and I enjoy life a great deal, yet here is this mini voice ranting and raving negative about something I'm having fun doing. Maybe some art psychoanalyst could explain all this to me and tell me what I already know such as, I'm simply crazy and maybe I should do some art therapy. Anyway, I would love to hear from other artist artist on this topic.

Computers & The Studio

Yesterday I decided to venture to the studio without my usual side kick, my laptop computer. A simple choice to make with profound implications.

I usually take the laptop to the art studio because I want to keep up on my emails, check Facebook, write blogs, and do some photoshoping when I take breaks from painting. I never paused to realize that this could distract me so much from my original intention, which of course is to paint, draw, visualize, and converse with other artist.

To my surprise this welcome change brought about unanticipated creativity and investigation into some subject matter I have been curious about for some time now. I have a small library of art books and poetry at the studio of which I usually only glance at throughout my day. However, yesterday I spent my breaks from painting doing a considerable amount of reading which yielded great insights and new knowledge about painting mediums and gold leafing.

This was much more fulfilling and rewarding than thinking about what's happening on Facebook , email, and blogs. Also, my perception of time was considerably different, the day seemed longer, slower paced, and I was much more focused.

I still love my computers and doing all the stuff I do on them, but I also realize how using them can be very distracting. I'm now thinking that I may go several days without using a computer and see how I feel. I mean it wasn't that long ago when computers were not a part of my daily activity and I got along just fine.

In summation, yesterday was my most productive day at the studio due to choosing a different course of action.

Saying For The Day; Try something new, something different in your life........